Saturday, May 23, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Lying is done with words and also with silence.
I have recently adopted the above quote. Adrienne Rich has never said a truer set of words. It takes my breath away when I come across individuals that do not consider silence a form of deception. I recently ended a conversation with a 40 year old gentleman. I use the word gentleman ONLY for the purposes of this posting because calling him a lyin' Bastard would be to good...sorry I digress. This gentleman was perplexed as to why I kept calling him a liar. He wanted to know what exactly he had said that would classify him as a liar.
We went back and forth for several rounds and finally broke it down like this:
1. When you say something that isn't true. Lie.
2. When you say something that leads another to believe something that isn't true. Lie.
3. When you tell just enough of the truth to get by. Lie.
4. When you you tell half and leave off half. Lie.
5. When you say nothing at all. Lie.
6. When you tell yourself something that isn't true. Damned sad lie.
I finally let the 40 year old lyin' bastard...urr...I mean gentleman that numbers 1-5 all ooze deceit. The 40 year old got me when he asked if #6 wasn't deceitful as well (did I mention he was a sarcastic lyin' bastard?). I am still mulling that one over. Can one be deceitful with oneself?
The bottom line for me isn't the lie. It isn't what I find so offensive. It is the deception that is the most egregious.
We went back and forth for several rounds and finally broke it down like this:
1. When you say something that isn't true. Lie.
2. When you say something that leads another to believe something that isn't true. Lie.
3. When you tell just enough of the truth to get by. Lie.
4. When you you tell half and leave off half. Lie.
5. When you say nothing at all. Lie.
6. When you tell yourself something that isn't true. Damned sad lie.
I finally let the 40 year old lyin' bastard...urr...I mean gentleman that numbers 1-5 all ooze deceit. The 40 year old got me when he asked if #6 wasn't deceitful as well (did I mention he was a sarcastic lyin' bastard?). I am still mulling that one over. Can one be deceitful with oneself?
The bottom line for me isn't the lie. It isn't what I find so offensive. It is the deception that is the most egregious.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
On the 5th of May
I have come to understand that this world has dreamers, realists and the people that are a hybrid of both. I am a realist who has a friend that is a dreamer.
Sometimes...it is so difficult for me to have a conversation with her. Sigh.
Sometimes...it is so difficult for me to have a conversation with her. Sigh.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
The Power of the Written Word
I've always been the type of person that believed that if you wrote down your thoughts and desires then there was live documentation (in black and white) for you to refer to if you needed it. The live documentation was there to hold me accountable, to remind me, to help me track my progress or lack there of. As a result, I have To Do Lists, Affirmation Sticky Notes, Blogs, Journals, and the various random doodling.
Usually when I write it down, I actually realize what is written there. No matter the task or dream, if I write it down, then I do it. My written words come to fruition. I've written down financial goals, written down my educational goals, I write down my running goals. Guess what? I realize those too. This week, for the first time, I kept a food journal. I've been writting down my goals this week. I've been writting down what I plan to eat (and what I want to avoid). Yup, so far so good.
So tonight, it has occurred to me that I should address the relationship area of my life. And no, I am not being ridiculous. It stands to reason, I write everything else down. So here goes:
I want a real man. I want a man that is emotionally available. One that loves music. One that loves art. He must love God and respect nature and the gifts it has to offer. He should speak with his heart. He should love me, respect me, challenge and interest me. He must be a man of integrity and honor.
It is now time for me to get to work.
Usually when I write it down, I actually realize what is written there. No matter the task or dream, if I write it down, then I do it. My written words come to fruition. I've written down financial goals, written down my educational goals, I write down my running goals. Guess what? I realize those too. This week, for the first time, I kept a food journal. I've been writting down my goals this week. I've been writting down what I plan to eat (and what I want to avoid). Yup, so far so good.
So tonight, it has occurred to me that I should address the relationship area of my life. And no, I am not being ridiculous. It stands to reason, I write everything else down. So here goes:
I want a real man. I want a man that is emotionally available. One that loves music. One that loves art. He must love God and respect nature and the gifts it has to offer. He should speak with his heart. He should love me, respect me, challenge and interest me. He must be a man of integrity and honor.
It is now time for me to get to work.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
25 More Random Things
On my first day of Spring Break, I find myself sick as a dog. Since I am bed ridden anyway, I've decided to share some random thoughts. These are not in any particular order.
1. Technology scares me. It really does, seriously. Take this Facebook account for instance….I only have it because of a class requirement.
2. I believe that ALL things have a season. Life, friends, jobs, relationships, clothes, etc.…enjoy what you can, learn what you are supposed to learn, and move on when it is done.
3. Even though she died back in 1999, it is still sometimes incomprehensible to me that my cousin Lisa is dead. I hope that she is proud of all me.
4. I am a gypsy at my core. I am at home anywhere on this planet.
5. Teaching was the absolute last thing I thought I would be doing for a career. I only began teaching while waiting for the Foreign Service to place me.
6. Monday, January 6, 2006 and running have saved my life. Literally.
7. I don’t believe in Political Correctness. I think it has abused Truth. However, I still hold out hope that Truth will prevail.
8. The first book I ever read from cover to cover was Gone With the Wind. I read the sequel Scarlet…what a let down.
9. I do own an IPOD (someone had to set it up for me though) and I have everyone from Conway Twitty to TPain loaded in it.
10. I have friends that have interesting careers. I know an ice trucker, a CEO of a bank, fitness trainers, foreign service workers, writers, archivists, reporters, pilots, a taste tester, exotic dancers, bartenders, fashion designers, professional athletes, private investigators, personal assistants to famous/wealthy people, numerous chefs, Peace Corps workers, actor, recording artists, ministers, a jeweler, a hand and foot model (not the same people, btw), a few regular models. I could go on, but I’ve made my point.
11. Closed Mind People (People that “Don’t like this/that/him/her/them/it” for no other reason other than mere existence), really, really tick me off.
12. I believe that people have the time to do what they desire to do. Period.
13. I am a principled person.
14. I despise winter, but understand its necessity in the cycle of things.
15. I am jealous of artistic people in general. I wish that I could express myself in the ways that they do.
16. I once spent an entire paycheck on a purse and a pair of shoes.
17. I get a kick out of seeing my students having an “Aha! Moment”. It never ever gets old.
18. The concept of rewarding people for doing things that they are supposed to do is the saddest practice I have ever seen.
19. I am most at peace when I am near water. I sometimes turn on the faucet and watch the water run. Lately, since I have been trying to be less wasteful of the world’s resources, I have started the practice of filling a large bucket with water and then using it to clean things. Yeah, you got it…the dipping my hands in water thingy.
20. I am an English teacher that happens to be the worst speller known to man.
21. I cried when I left Brazil at the end of last summer. I really, really considered not boarding my flight back to the US.
22. If one got a passport stamped for travel within the US, my passport would be stamped the most for Las Vegas, Nevada. Yeah, I don’t get this one either. I’ve been to Las Vegas so many times now that visits have begun to blend together.
23. Sometimes people don’t get what they deserve.
24. It is in part of because of charity that I am where I am today. I am charitable one, to remind myself of it and two, to hopefully bless someone else.
25. My mom and my aunt are my heroes.
1. Technology scares me. It really does, seriously. Take this Facebook account for instance….I only have it because of a class requirement.
2. I believe that ALL things have a season. Life, friends, jobs, relationships, clothes, etc.…enjoy what you can, learn what you are supposed to learn, and move on when it is done.
3. Even though she died back in 1999, it is still sometimes incomprehensible to me that my cousin Lisa is dead. I hope that she is proud of all me.
4. I am a gypsy at my core. I am at home anywhere on this planet.
5. Teaching was the absolute last thing I thought I would be doing for a career. I only began teaching while waiting for the Foreign Service to place me.
6. Monday, January 6, 2006 and running have saved my life. Literally.
7. I don’t believe in Political Correctness. I think it has abused Truth. However, I still hold out hope that Truth will prevail.
8. The first book I ever read from cover to cover was Gone With the Wind. I read the sequel Scarlet…what a let down.
9. I do own an IPOD (someone had to set it up for me though) and I have everyone from Conway Twitty to TPain loaded in it.
10. I have friends that have interesting careers. I know an ice trucker, a CEO of a bank, fitness trainers, foreign service workers, writers, archivists, reporters, pilots, a taste tester, exotic dancers, bartenders, fashion designers, professional athletes, private investigators, personal assistants to famous/wealthy people, numerous chefs, Peace Corps workers, actor, recording artists, ministers, a jeweler, a hand and foot model (not the same people, btw), a few regular models. I could go on, but I’ve made my point.
11. Closed Mind People (People that “Don’t like this/that/him/her/them/it” for no other reason other than mere existence), really, really tick me off.
12. I believe that people have the time to do what they desire to do. Period.
13. I am a principled person.
14. I despise winter, but understand its necessity in the cycle of things.
15. I am jealous of artistic people in general. I wish that I could express myself in the ways that they do.
16. I once spent an entire paycheck on a purse and a pair of shoes.
17. I get a kick out of seeing my students having an “Aha! Moment”. It never ever gets old.
18. The concept of rewarding people for doing things that they are supposed to do is the saddest practice I have ever seen.
19. I am most at peace when I am near water. I sometimes turn on the faucet and watch the water run. Lately, since I have been trying to be less wasteful of the world’s resources, I have started the practice of filling a large bucket with water and then using it to clean things. Yeah, you got it…the dipping my hands in water thingy.
20. I am an English teacher that happens to be the worst speller known to man.
21. I cried when I left Brazil at the end of last summer. I really, really considered not boarding my flight back to the US.
22. If one got a passport stamped for travel within the US, my passport would be stamped the most for Las Vegas, Nevada. Yeah, I don’t get this one either. I’ve been to Las Vegas so many times now that visits have begun to blend together.
23. Sometimes people don’t get what they deserve.
24. It is in part of because of charity that I am where I am today. I am charitable one, to remind myself of it and two, to hopefully bless someone else.
25. My mom and my aunt are my heroes.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Live & Learn, Learn & Live.
I promised myself that if and when I ever went back to school that it would be for myself and it would be for topics that I cared about. Tonight I am sitting in a course called Flash CS3. Tonight (at 9:40 pm mind you and the class began at 6 pm) I am wondering if I really care about this topic. I really am trying not to second guess my decision.
Aye yie, yie!
That is all.
Aye yie, yie!
That is all.
Monday, March 23, 2009
So let it be written, so let it be done.
In 2:12 flat! It wasn't to long ago that I informed all one of you out there that reads this blog (lol)that I had signed up to do one more again. And so this past weekend the stars aligned perfectly for me to safely travel to Virginia Beach, Va for the Yuengling Shamrock Marathon, Half Marathon and 8K. What a great weekend! Not only was I impressed with my time (of which I don't believe I could have done any better), but I was impressed with the graciousness of the people. I was able to laugh a lot and relax. I was even able to drink champagne at the finish line (sorry sponsors).
Weirdest moment: Seeing a beer station at miles 3 and 9.
Most hilarious road signage: "Baseball is wrong....a man with 4 balls cannot walk."
Odd restaurant menu offering: Ham Chunks
Most memorable moment: Too many to count
Most inspirational moment: My tears of triumph at the finish line.
Weirdest moment: Seeing a beer station at miles 3 and 9.
Most hilarious road signage: "Baseball is wrong....a man with 4 balls cannot walk."
Odd restaurant menu offering: Ham Chunks
Most memorable moment: Too many to count
Most inspirational moment: My tears of triumph at the finish line.
Rewarding moment: Champagne and live music after the race.
It was suggested that Virginia Beach become a yearly tradition. I have to say that I agree. Man...great friends, great laughs, great race....equals awesome memories.
It was suggested that Virginia Beach become a yearly tradition. I have to say that I agree. Man...great friends, great laughs, great race....equals awesome memories.
Btw: The picture of is of me 5 seconds before crossing the finish line.
Friday, March 6, 2009
In Memory of Mercedes "Ce-Ce" Fondren
Good Night
“You were a cheerleader and you can dance?”
giggle
Your laugh was infectious
It matched your quirky voice and style.
“Are you gonna miss me when I'm gone?’
frowny face
That question everyone asks at some point
We didn’t know that we’d have to eventually answer it.
“Are you sad? You look sad?”
affirmative head nod
We liked that you could always tell
You always seemed to just know.
“Who's gonna have the last laugh?”
a cunning winking eye
We all did because we knew you.
The pleasure was certainly ours, lady.
“Wanna see what I've been working on?”
display a belly with child
Another one in the world like you would’ve been awesome.
But God already knew that mankind wouldn’t appreciate it.
Thank you Ce-Ce
You made us keep our promise
We are all getting together again.
Sleep well dear, sweet lady.
We'll see you soon.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
The Hilton's showed me great hospitality
in Ocean City, Maryland this weekend. I was relieved because only one other hotel got the nod as a nice place to stay. The hotel was immaculate and the staff efficient and very friendly. The view from Suite 1012 was breathtaking. Even though the weather was a bit on the frosty side (as February tends to be), I was able to venture out and do stuff. I walked on the beach, I took a very leisurely stroll on the boardwalk. I ate way to much pizza from Fat Guys. I chased the wild ponies at Assateague. Finally, on my last night, I savored every bite of my steak dinner which was compliments of my sweetie Chef Mike.
I'm a firm believer that the beach can be enjoyed anytime of year. If you decide to stay at the Hilton, tell them ILP sent you.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Veria
I've spent the last few weeks catching up to the past. I got a new cell phone and a new internet, cable and phone provider. I am sure that I am not saving any money with all of these upgrades that I performed, but I have discovered a little gem. I think my new muse is worth all the money I've spent afterall.
So lady and gentlema...eerr, ladies, let me introduce: Veria.
More information can be found here... http://www.veria.com/
Enjoy.
So lady and gentlema...eerr, ladies, let me introduce: Veria.
More information can be found here... http://www.veria.com/
Enjoy.
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